What would you be when there is nothing left to do?

I am many times in a state of ponder about the fact that we do not know how lonely we are. 

Most of us would say that we do not have time to spare. Between work and home and TV and fb time goes by. Between shopping and other social obligations that we spend time on – time goes by as a time pass. Between decorating a house or buying new clothes we pass our time. We fill our time; that is all that we do, in random useless things, debating, analyzing, discussing in a reactive mode. It may have some use but nothing is ever changed so effectively it is a time pass activity.

But all this will come to an end one day. One will retire, or the activities that one does may get repetitive, TV and fb may become boring and one may have so much time that one then starts to speculate on the purpose of life. I have met many old and young people who become very depressed when they have so much of free time that they know not what to do about it apart from watching TV the whole day, or being on fb or twitter or being a baby sitter to their grand children or being a part of their children’s family, or becoming a negative fault finding person. Even with job there is still time to kill, young mothers too have some time to spare. For older people children too get busy and do not want much interference and that makes them again be lonely.

And when one loses a spouse or a long time partner or going through a divorce – it gets worse. The point that I am arriving at is that we never spend time on our own self in quiet to understand ourselves to know ourselves and to find out about our own nature.

What would be left with me when all that I depend on gets taken away from me? Sounds depressing but it is still better to ask yourself such questions when you are still in the midst of friends and are young and have less time to think about all this.

One must think about why we do certain things certain way, about our habits, about our fixations, about our dependence on external stimulation.

One must at least think about one's own nature at least for sometime in a day in a quiet mode ! When the structure of a system  that you so depend on( be it home or work front or any other structure)  that you are used to falls -then what are you? Who are you?