My thought Meter- do you have one?~ a fiction

I found this thought  meter that could measure my thoughts and change colour depending on the emotions I felt. I just had to clip it to the inside of my ear just like a thermometer.

I could see the coordinates of my thoughts  that told me my state of well being. The coordinates kept changing with my emotions and thoughts. The changed numbers constantly told me how erratic my mind was - it was thinking of million thoughts and not processing the ones that could make it more alert to other things beyond this world.

A few hours back this  meter changed its color to grey and the numbers - those numbers were the subset of fear - fear of unknown and those numbers  were being emitted by me all the time. My boss just called me and told me off - and I saw the connection of the subset of my numbers with my life situation.

I watched my own meter and was surprised that my meter stayed grey mostly - a state of fear, it changed to blue when I felt love and yellow when I felt spiritual, red when I was in a light mood and green when I felt altruistic. I decided to change how I think.

I deliberately started thinking higher thoughts - thoughts of love, thoughts of well being for all- oh what do I see here that the numbers start to change again, The colour of meter changed. On radio with my higher thoughts I heard my most favorite song when I changed my thought. WOW.  How I think brings me those experiences- I had read that but now I have a meter that tests my theory. I also knew that all manifestations were not instantaneous!

But then I found that it was very easy for me to become unaware and the mind went back to fearful scared coordinates- and that created events in my life- sometimes instantly sometimes later.

That thought meter changed me. I started watching it all the time. I watched and watched  all my awake time. It was as if a part of me was watching my own meter and other part was doing the work or interacting with the world. I realized that when I was unaware I was mostly fear, scared, unsure- the deep down need to want love and assurance kept me running , blindly lashing out and stay masked.

I realized when I deliberately thought of higher thoughts - by chanting or just forcing myself to think differently even in the adversity of  situation I changed my own heart beat, my mind and my external situation

May you find your thought meter. May you see how you bring to your own self your own doing.



   

Hug your own self right now as you are

The moments of some sadness

That this mind suffers

Due to its own ignorance

Of considering world to be forever

Are uplifted with a decision

To watch like a stranger at all at stake.

Without attaching to it

Without resisting it

Let it be just let it be

Hug the sad as much as  happy 
Emotions- thoughts  of mind

As part of life so be it.


And if you ask how to hug sad?
It is very simple my friend
The sad YOU or the Happy YOU
Must be hugged by you in your mind 
The bliss of acceptance then my friends
Releases all pent up emotions

In the state of yielding 
In not judging the moment
In embracing yourself
As you are NOW
You become a tree that bends
In the fate of a storm

Be Grateful to be Happy :)

Is it the happy that are grateful?

Or the grateful that are happy?

Some have all and are unhappy

More of same or different they want

Some with misfortunes so deep

 Radiate constant joy and bliss

No we have got it all wrong

It is the other way a new song

It is not the happiness that makes us grateful

But the gratefulness that makes us happy

The gratefulness is for gifts

That cosmos gives you for free

Look at your life to see

The most valuable is absolutely free

Let us begun a revolution so great

To be grateful perpetual every date  

The joy that arises in the bosom

Makes happier you and happier world

The Pink Closet

The pain of love 

That was not hers was 

The pain that she 

Lived with forever

The love for him

Was put in a closet 

A pink beautiful closet

With a big lock on it

She sometimes opened the lock

To then caress that love

To feel it in her bosom

Lost in world of HIM

And when it was time to act 

In the outer world of people

She put the love back in the pink closet

To relish another time

Love made her vagabond

She was Careless in the world

She lived unkempt

Delirious like drunk 

The love in that pink closet 

When she was grey

Still was the pure wild love

That she carried with her in her death

People said it is her karma~ a fiction

What if I said that your memory of things, places, events, people in your life is the karma that you bear in form of sad, happy, liberated, angry, anxious, cynical etc…your software programmed in you – that decides your physical energy, your subtle energies, your mental energies and all that encompasses you.

  

What if there was this Sheila who in her past life lived and died due to unfulfilled love – the memory of her rejection stayed with her( not the memory of the event) and what if in her present life the residual memory of last life combined with  memories of every past day of fights with her husband make her a bitter and  unhappy  lady- people said it is her karma!

What if there was this Adam who in his two past  lives removed  had been a doctor – when new methods  medicine and surgery were being invented and what if he had accidentally killed people due to lack of knowledge, what if he stayed with that guilt for ever and that memory carried over on in next life where he was a shoe maker and he lived with that guilt with a wife who dominated him due to that guilt attitude always defensive and never confident to next life – the present life of a women – the guilt of past lives had sedimented her to be  she was docile suppressed and yet never happy person,- her children the other souls who due to their past karmas had to be born out of a subtle body with guilt aura never thrived in their life…people said it is his karma!

What is Kelly an actress and very famous, people bowed to her when she walked past them, a beauty diva, a glamorous personality whose one spoke line made headlines carried with her this memory of being very important- a headstrong ego, now born in a poor family still carried that attitude – creating many issues, being called arrogant when she was poor, this urge to want to be recognized and the frustration lead her to become a sexual victim and drug addict- people said it is her karma!

What if Raiza a Hindu fanatic in a past life now a Muslim fanatic – with the memory of fanaticism in his bosom carried that single thought that he is obsessed with life after life after life?- His karma?

And what If our latent memories make people be born to become families in every life or married and due to the memory – so hidden, so deeply entrenched that we only ask why me, why  I suffer due to blood relations or due to my child or due to my spouse, or due to friends- people say it is our karma?

  What if ………..what if..........what if..............

Memory means an accumulated past. 

Memory means information. 

Memory means that which does not exists but acts out as if it does, memory is more real than reality. 

We carry our memories, our intellect from one stop to next- we are born with already accumulated ways of thinking- called our personality and we live another life- assuming that life to be the only life we have ever lived- yet never wonder why we are different to others, why we perceive differently, never wonder what is that witness that has been watching. We never wonder about how hidden our own biases are and how every perception of us is skewed due to accumulations of past lives– we are a software bound to see things certain way- our karma and act out certain way and then bear consequences  those actions- a viscous non stop cycle

We are nothing but information data – life after life after life- unless we do not become aware of our own self- there is no way out!

(According to Vedanta each one of us – assuming many past lives we have lived – carry our subtle body according to Vedanta( called as spirit or soul by most of us) - the subtle body is referred to as the “inner instrument” and is composed of four different components: the mind, intellect, ego, and memory…)

Why do we overlook what we already have?

A million dollar question- why do we overlook what we already have?  There are many quotes floating on fb that as us to be in gratitude and be thankful with what we have. But for most of us it is not that way even if we appreciate this thought.

If we were to consider all pursuits in our life- all pursuits are to find happiness. For us happiness lies in security of physical self, pleasure and virtue for mind for various reasons! Would one say that fictionally a business man who is filthy rich is happiest? No!  Despite everything being at his beck and call he is not the happiest person. The reason is that once one has achieved the outer success as defined by social order, the benchmark becomes part of the memory. When it becomes part of our achieved memory we then do not get the kind of joy from it as we want to or when we did not have that object. Everything that has been attained by one materialistically becomes part of memory and therefore not new!  And therefore not joyful!

And if we were to consider love for another to be something that gives us joy – yes surely as long as he or she stay the way you want them too, the love too otherwise becomes a resignation a comfort of knowing that person, a way to live as we know no other way! Love for other and wanting to be loved in return is the greatest source of grief as when once we become part of that person then the memory of experiences takes the newness away!

So back to the blog question- why do we overlook what we already have?  

Be mindful that when an object gives you joy we think that it is the object that is giving us the joy- the real reason is that joy is part of you, that object that you wanted lowers your agitations and the mind becomes peaceful for a while and we think that the object did it. The object simply shows to you that you have a nature of being joyful for if you did not have that in you- you would not experience it anyway. And then when that attainment becomes part of your memory – it no longer gives you the kind of kick – the mental agitations increase and we want something else.

The how to be what we already are? Philosophers have written books on the fact that we already are that .Joy is our true nature as when and if we know how to be joyful without external objects we will enjoy freedom that is beyond any measure of what freedom may mean!  When we recognize that joy in us then there is no memory stale and then every moment is your own joy – you celebrating your own self, without memory of past moment- Not easy , but if this is a thought then there must also be an experience somewhere!