My thought Meter- do you have one?~ a fiction

I found this thought  meter that could measure my thoughts and change colour depending on the emotions I felt. I just had to clip it to the inside of my ear just like a thermometer.

I could see the coordinates of my thoughts  that told me my state of well being. The coordinates kept changing with my emotions and thoughts. The changed numbers constantly told me how erratic my mind was - it was thinking of million thoughts and not processing the ones that could make it more alert to other things beyond this world.

A few hours back this  meter changed its color to grey and the numbers - those numbers were the subset of fear - fear of unknown and those numbers  were being emitted by me all the time. My boss just called me and told me off - and I saw the connection of the subset of my numbers with my life situation.

I watched my own meter and was surprised that my meter stayed grey mostly - a state of fear, it changed to blue when I felt love and yellow when I felt spiritual, red when I was in a light mood and green when I felt altruistic. I decided to change how I think.

I deliberately started thinking higher thoughts - thoughts of love, thoughts of well being for all- oh what do I see here that the numbers start to change again, The colour of meter changed. On radio with my higher thoughts I heard my most favorite song when I changed my thought. WOW.  How I think brings me those experiences- I had read that but now I have a meter that tests my theory. I also knew that all manifestations were not instantaneous!

But then I found that it was very easy for me to become unaware and the mind went back to fearful scared coordinates- and that created events in my life- sometimes instantly sometimes later.

That thought meter changed me. I started watching it all the time. I watched and watched  all my awake time. It was as if a part of me was watching my own meter and other part was doing the work or interacting with the world. I realized that when I was unaware I was mostly fear, scared, unsure- the deep down need to want love and assurance kept me running , blindly lashing out and stay masked.

I realized when I deliberately thought of higher thoughts - by chanting or just forcing myself to think differently even in the adversity of  situation I changed my own heart beat, my mind and my external situation

May you find your thought meter. May you see how you bring to your own self your own doing.